This weekend there was an agility trail locally. I went to show my support to a fellow dalmatian owner here in the State that’s running her dalmatian Pixie. I had my boy Chaos with me because we went to do a little training to while I was out. So anyway, I had him in with me visiting and had several people come up and ask if I was running this weekend or yay your finally back and it brought back so many memories and feelings. No, I was not running him. Not because we couldn’t because we could and should be running but I’m not.
So, as I lay here awake I am of course overthinking like I do and one of my topics is running agility again. I had an amazing first Dalmatian in Princess, she was my world and she was an amazing agility partner! We were known very well in the agility world and she has so many agility titles but we didn’t get to finish. I’m mad about that. Really mad. She was taken from me too soon. It’s been 10 1/2 years and it still hurts. I wasn’t ready. I know we are never ready to loose our beloved pets but I lost her so unexpectedly. I was told she was okay. I was made to feel like I was overreacting and nothing was wrong with her. That was by a professional!! They were suppose to know. I was suppose to know.
I really thought I had came to terms with her loss. The phone call none of us ever want to get and I received and it played over in my head day after day, week after week, month after month and even year after year on that dreadful day I will never forget.
So much has changed in my life since me and PP ran agility together. I knew right away I couldn’t run agility with Solo, one because it was too hard knowing we had so much more to do with Princess and me and two Solos heart was never in it. She didn’t love agility like her mom did.
Now, al these years later I have Princess grand puppies, 2 are mine and remind us so much of Princess that we knew a peice of her was still with us.
So I start training them in agility along with obedience and of course conformation. Both are ready to start trialing. Well, have been ready but still trail after trail goes by and I don’t enter. Why people ask and then look at me like I am nuts when I say we’re not ready. Well, that’s because they know that’s not true. The saying, "If you fall off a horse, you get back up. I am not a quitter.", well I feel like I am a quitter, I feel like I can’t get back on that horse so to speak. Why? I can’t seem to shake the feeling that I am somehow betraying Princess. I worry I will emotionally loose if I go back out there. How do I break this? Why can’t I see what I am missing with these beautiful Princess grand babies here sitting or laying in front of me?
Sorry to blab on and on this all just hit me and I needed to write it.
The loss of a pet is never easy. Enjoy every moment with them. Because you never know when it will be your last.
Broken hearted 💔
So, as I lay here awake I am of course overthinking like I do and one of my topics is running agility again. I had an amazing first Dalmatian in Princess, she was my world and she was an amazing agility partner! We were known very well in the agility world and she has so many agility titles but we didn’t get to finish. I’m mad about that. Really mad. She was taken from me too soon. It’s been 10 1/2 years and it still hurts. I wasn’t ready. I know we are never ready to loose our beloved pets but I lost her so unexpectedly. I was told she was okay. I was made to feel like I was overreacting and nothing was wrong with her. That was by a professional!! They were suppose to know. I was suppose to know.
I really thought I had came to terms with her loss. The phone call none of us ever want to get and I received and it played over in my head day after day, week after week, month after month and even year after year on that dreadful day I will never forget.
So much has changed in my life since me and PP ran agility together. I knew right away I couldn’t run agility with Solo, one because it was too hard knowing we had so much more to do with Princess and me and two Solos heart was never in it. She didn’t love agility like her mom did.
Now, al these years later I have Princess grand puppies, 2 are mine and remind us so much of Princess that we knew a peice of her was still with us.
So I start training them in agility along with obedience and of course conformation. Both are ready to start trialing. Well, have been ready but still trail after trail goes by and I don’t enter. Why people ask and then look at me like I am nuts when I say we’re not ready. Well, that’s because they know that’s not true. The saying, "If you fall off a horse, you get back up. I am not a quitter.", well I feel like I am a quitter, I feel like I can’t get back on that horse so to speak. Why? I can’t seem to shake the feeling that I am somehow betraying Princess. I worry I will emotionally loose if I go back out there. How do I break this? Why can’t I see what I am missing with these beautiful Princess grand babies here sitting or laying in front of me?
Sorry to blab on and on this all just hit me and I needed to write it.
The loss of a pet is never easy. Enjoy every moment with them. Because you never know when it will be your last.
Broken hearted 💔
Princess and me in Kenai in 2003 I believe. Such grace and elegance.
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